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Friday, February 25, 2005

This is my Desire

I am sitting here at work with most of my work all done. I have been listening to Jeremy Camp Restored (great CD!) One song keeps playing over and over in my head. 'My Desire' talks about how you don't want to live this life as a phoney or a fake but that your will should be to live your life for the Glory of God. This is also my desire, to be used by God for His glory. I feel so strongly that going to Africa is what God wants of me. I also know that going may costs me many things, including my life. I gladly give them up to the Lord, who has given me more than I could ever pay back. My heart aches to do His will and glorify Him. So many tims I fail and everytime I do God is right beside me, leading me and always loving me. I don't want to be a fly-by-night Christian. I want evey part of my life to be about Glorifing my Father, the King! I want God to use me and I want to give my life fully to Him. It's so hard sometimes because I can be so selfish and want only what I want. But I will not give up. James 1:2-4 says "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." God will never fail me or you. It is my desire to be used by Him for His glory.

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
You want to be someone laying down your pride
You want to be someone someday
Then lay it all down before the king

You want to be whole, you want to have purpose inside
You want to have virtue and purify your mind

You want to be set free today
Then lay it all down before the king

This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by you

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
And I know my heart is to feel you near
And I know my life
It's to do your will
It's to do your will

All my life I have seen
Where you've take me
Beyond all I have hoped
And there's more left unseen

There's not much I can do to repay all you've done
So I give my hands to use

-Jeremy Camp

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Frozen face and friends!

Hello friends
Well yesterday was an interesting day. I got 2 fillings replaced and my mouth was completely frozen. I couldn't speak well and so that made me want to speak even more because I sounded so funny. The dentist I went to was SO nice too. I really liked him.
I also got to see my good friends Sue, Justin and Benoit. Sue and Benoit were visiting for reading week. It was really great to see Sue. We were really good friends in high school and had LOTS of fun together. Looking back at high school I see how blessed I was to have some many awesome friends. We were not the typical high school group. Ou idea of a fun night was playing football in the nearby school, or playing hide and seek in the dark. When so many other teens were getting into drugs and alcohol we were playing games, going tobagganing and just having fun! Cheers to my high school friends...alls ya all rock!
So anyway we had a great visit and have some coolio plans for Easter.
I went to Cambrian and dropped off something for Dale and got talking to Jewel. She is the athletic department secretary, she's cool. We talked about Rwanda and all the possiblities there. It is so encouraging to talk with people who support me and think it's great that I am going. Thank you for your support. Speaking of support I am going to give a small presentation to my church on Sunday...kinda a nervous but kind of excited too. We'll see how that goes.

OCAA volleyball
Today marks the start of the OCAA volleyball championships in North Bay. My girls WILL win! I have no doubt in my mind. They are doing so well this year and I know they have it in them! My girls rocks! So good luck ladies (you don't need luck though, you got skill) and have fun. You can track Cambrian progress by clicking on the volleyball link of the right hand side of the page. Enjoy the gumballs and smokes Dale:)
GO SHIELD GO

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Art by Mike

I offered to let Mike describe how I went off the road last week. He chose to express himself through art. Here is a picture he drew depicting the event.





IT's beautiful, brings tears to my eyes...thinking about stupid Trill!
Peace!

Monday, February 21, 2005

Boring weekend turned interesting

On friday morning I was sitting around at work thinking...'man I have nothing to write about in my blog'...then I went to trill...
Trill is this stupid place way back in the bush and when I say way back I mean farther in the bush then any normal person would ever want to go. Mike and I (he was my boss in the summer but not anymore) went to trill in the BRAND NEW rental truck! I was driving on the icy icy icy(with no salt or sand!) roads. I don't want to bore you with the details but we rounded a corner we began to slid hardcore! We ended up in a snowbank/ditch off the side of the road. Actually only 2 tires were not on the road but that was enough for us to get stuck. There we were in the middle of no where with a truck stuck in the ditch. We walked to a nearby home...one of the few out there and called for a tow truck. We decided not to let a beautiful day go to waste and pulled out the snowshoes and went snowshoeing while we waited for our lift. After we got tired of that we jumped into the truck and began to read. I have been reading "Shake Hands with the Devil: The Failure of Humanity in Rwanda" it's a great book and helps me prepare for my upcoming missions.
The tow truck finally came and we were able to get out. I didn't get home till 6 that night as we were so late due to our predicament. Oh well, live and learn.

Roadie with Kari
Vanessa basketball team was playing U. of T. on saturday night in Toronto. I wanted to go support my girl so I decided to drive up with Mr. Jakola. I'll tell you Melissa and Vanessa are great road trip buddies but I see now where they get it from. Kar-dawg, as I so lovingly refer to him as, brought along the portable DVD player and we watched the Gospel of John on the way up. Very good I recommend it. Anyways we got to Toronto at about 4ish and the game didn't start till 7. WE purposely drove all over town...yeah we did it on purpose we weren't lost. We found the gym and a parking spot and then Kari and I hit the town. We went to a magic store(actually this was before the gym) and saw some cool tricks, a book store, and saw some 'interesting' books, and hit up a Tim Hortons too. Kar-dawg made a friend there, a street guy, who "had a frozen thumb because he never wears mitts or gloves". He explained to Kari that he couldn't open his creamer due to his frozen thumb. Kari being the genious he is, suggested "why don't you use the other hand". After this great revelation, the man thank Kari as if he had saved his life, and went to use the washroom exclaiming "I need the key to the bathroom, cause I gotta use it!!!" Everyone in Timmies heard. It was quite funny. Ummm maybe you had to be there.
Anyways the game was great and there were more LU fans than Toronto fans, it was awesome, best I have seen them play all season. Kari was cheering his heart out too! He even stood up a few times, I credit that to another excitable fan, John D. I think his enthusiasm rubbed off on Mr. J. Though the game was close through out LU came up with the 70-58 win and now heads to Ottawa for the eastern conference final on saturday. This saturday in North Bay is also the provincial finals for OCAA volleyball. I will be heading up to cheer on my girls!
Well I hope this blog finds you well.
Peace out

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Book Blog

I was reading K&K's blog today and they had this. So I thought I would do it too.

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don’t search around and look for the “coolest” book you can find. Do what’s actually next to you.

"The only person to make this argument was Lando Ndasingwa of the Parti liberal, but nobody supported his bold stand."
Shake Hands with the Devil: The Failure or humanty in Rwanda
-LGen. Romeo Dallaire.

Well...ok not as cool as theirs but good book none the less.

Name that car!

These past few days I have been so successful at accomplishing what needed to get done. I have beaten procrastination, for the time being...hahaha.

On tuesday morning I left Waterloo at 6ish. Brian was kind enough to wake me up, and I was off in a flash, stopped for gas and hit the road. Traffic started off alright but things slowed to a crawl fairly close to TO. You see down south rather than spreading their salt all over the road they like to dump it on a stretch of about 100m and have it and inch thick. It was basically like driving over gravel! Once I got passed the gravel pit it was smooth sailing from there on, in fact it was fast sailing. I looked down a few times and was like "oh crapola, that's fast" Here's my theory about the Corolla, you see he was driven by an old lady before and could never really break free from the harsh dictatorship she had over him. Now with me he was shy to start with, but he found himself on the road and released the inner car. I think he is finally happy, and has found family, myself and the road. I also believe that due to his shyness no name has jumped out at me. He has found his identity on the road and now needs identity in the form of a name. Some of you are thinking cars are girls, but really I think he is a boy. So I am taking suggestions for car names. He's a blue, 4-door, 86', hatchback, Corolla. Look how cute he is!







Ok so the rest of the day. I got home and showered and went for my apppointment at the health unit. I ended up getting 4 shots. Yellow fever (which has been know to have some not so fun side effects) Typhoid (which has been know to cause your arm to ache) Hep A, and a TB test(which makes this freaky bump in your arm). My left arm took the brunt of the pain by recieving 3 of the 4 shots. Actually typing this blog is hard...but anything for my adoring fans. I have had a head-ache(which is really rare) and last night as I was lying in bed and was overcome with dizziness. It felt so weird. Honestly I have never felt anything like it, I was spinning in my bed. So other than those minor side effects the shots were ok. After recieving my needles I proceeded to run a few errands then headed home.

That evening I had the privilage of meeting up with Angie before she left to see Melissa in Taiwan(a wee bit jealous I can't go...I MISS MELIS!) Her bus had an hour lay over in Sudbury, starting at 11:50pm. So the wonderful Angie and I had great conversations and laughed the whole time. It was an encouragment to talk with her and see her again. I was so happy we could spend some time catching up...although I am sure the other people at the bus station were annoyed with our constant laughter.

Wednesday morning I headed over to Laurentian University to met with a prof there. I am going back to school in September and need to get some things done before I go. The meeting went well and I have done all that I can at this time in those regards. I came home and did almost all of the things on my "to do" list. I was quite pleased. I then decided to reward myself with a nap.

Vanessa basketball team played Ryerson in their first playoff game. It was a rough and exciting game, but LU came through with the win. I thought Dorothy was gonna snap. She was so mad at the refs and the players. She had to leave Kari and I and go sit somewhere else. It was so funny. The game reminded me of the time Melissa and I were trashing an opposing player, only to look over a few minutes later to see her parents sitting RIGHT beside us. We tried to play it off that we were talking about another player...so slick!

Today is now Thursday, and I am back to work. A 2-day week! I am loving it! I have to get some pics developed today and get a perscription for Malaria pills, and talk to Pastor Jack. So a semi-busy night but do-able.

Mike, the guy I work with, is helping me with my blog. He has shown me so many little tricks. It's funny because people ACTUALLY think we are working on work...hahaha so foolish;)


Ok so you guys have some names to submit. I love the comments too. Keep'em coming!
Love and Peace!

Monday, February 14, 2005

Waterloo weekend

So just how fast does an 86 Corolla go...That's right I took the first official roadie with the Corolla. HE liked it. Stopped in Nobel for gas and food and saw 4 people I new from the Timmies there.
Anyways the reason I came down was to meet with the ITeams group and get some more information as to what to do next and all that jazz. I hung out with Brian and his family. Man what a blessing it was to meet him and have him working with me in this mission.
The days meeting went really well. I got some direction as to time and budget and location and ministry and lots of stuff. I also got to met Jen for the first time and I can tell that we are going to get along so well. She totally rocks! I am confident in her ability and that brings me more confidence. So yeah good day filled with information. I feel very encouraged after today and feel God leading and guiding me into Africa. The people in Rwanda are hurting so badly, still feeling the effects of the genocides and now suffering from the horrible effects of AIDS/HIV. My heart goes out to the people. It is my hope and prayer that your hearts are touched by the people of Rwanda and that you will listen as the Lord speaks to you on what your role is in this country, for these people, and most importantly for God's glory. I hope you will start to consider partnering with me in prayer, and finacially. I challenge you to begin to pray about it and bring it before God.
Tomorrow I head back to Sudbury to get some shots! Woohoo! So I am going to relax tonight and header back in the AM. I am off to chill with Brian and his family on yet another dateless valentines day;)
Peace out, with love!

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Uncle Kip

On February 9th, 1998 I experienced one of the most devestating days of my life. On that day my uncle Kip was killed in a car accident near Iron Bridge. Amazingly enough my aunt Lori and 4 cousins; Hannah(8), Nathan (6), Thomas(4) and James(4) survived the crash, and are doing well today. I was devestated and completely crushed. But after a few months, some prayer and some good friends, I realized that my uncle was in a better place, and that God was still in control and that God still loved me!
My uncle was the coolest. He always did fun stuff with us. I have so many awesome memories of him, and I treasure those. Just wanted to let everyone know that I love my uncle and miss him, but at the same I know he is having a rock'n time right now!

"The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
may the name of the LORD be praised."
-Job 1:21

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Best Friend

"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart."
- Anon
Yep that's so true. Vanessa is my best friend (well after Jesus). I thought that since she is a big part of my life that my blog should have some reflection of the Vester.
The person who knows all my 'secrets' and I, hers. The person who knows what I am about to say before I say it. The person who thinks along the same lines, laughs at the same jokes and the person who can always guess what I am drawing in hoola or pictionary. Although there was that one time I stole her sheep port...
There have been many nights that we have stayed up talking till the wee hours of the morning, often sharing the single bed in her room...surprisingly comfortable. Oh the funny stories I could share.

Here's a funny story....Vanessa and I were playing hoola and I was acting out a person. (Nadia Commaneci - the first gymnasist to recieve a perfect 10) Anyways Vanessa was going all around the answer, saying "gymnastics, polevault, perfect 10" etc. Then I said "no a name" and Vanessa was like (in a weird voice) "NADIA COMMANECI" And I'm like "YES!" and V-sters like "WHAT! I don't even know who that is!!!" lol is was so funny. We spent like 10 minutes laughing...maybe you had to be there. Good times!

I think that God puts people in our lives who push us to become better people, who helps get up when we fall down. Vanessa has always been there for me and I am truely blessed to have her as a friend.

Peace out

"A friend is someone who knows all about you... and loves you anyway."




Vanessa and Erin - posers


Monday, February 07, 2005

Weekend at Camp

Hello friends
It's another monday morning, blah. The alarm came to quickly this morning so I hit the snooze for 40 minutes! AND made it to work on time.
This weekend I was at Galilean Bible Camp, working in the kitchen. Yes you heard me, in the kitchen. The kitchen rookies, Mark. S, Jeff. G, and myself were not the greatest in the kitchen and the phrases "Janet, what do we do?" and "Janet, where does this go?" could be heard for most of the weekend. But it was going pretty good until Saturday night when the hot water tank busted and we had no hot water therefore no dishwasher and had to wash like a million things by hand. With the help of some rock'n volunteers we got the job done in no time and were able to enjoy the rest of the night. I hit up the tube hill for some good times with Liz. We almost killed ourselves a few times, and my neck is a bit sore from some tumbling action but it was all worth it for the laughs!
So the weekend rocked and it was so awesome to see people I haven't seen in so long. Oh Brulie and Juice!
So I am off to work now, and today I plan on telling the boss that I won't be here for much longer...yeah not looking forward to that.
Peace out.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

And so it begins...

Hello Friends:
What's going on? Well on my end, many things. In fact so many that I am kinda stress'n, but it's all good. God is in controll!

For those of you who haven't already heard, I am heading to Rwanda on a missions trip for 4 months. Something the Lord has been calling me to do for a while now. I am so excited and passionate about going and serving God, not to mention a wee bit scared too. It's ok though because I KNOW God is in control. He rocks!

Rwanda is a country in desperate need of God (really, who isn't). If you want to read a bit more about Rwanda, lonely planet is a good site. I would love to talk to you about but time is short today so you can just check things out there.

I am working with a missions group called International Teams. They have been so great. Those of you interested in missions you can check out Iteams and those of you who aren't interested...you can check it out too.

Alrighty my peeps, I am gonna get some work done. Hope you enjoy my blog. Obviously when I am in Rwanda it will be a great way for you to see what I am up to. Have your self a good day. And remember don't just be another dead fish on the sidewalk! (for you Melissa)
Peace out